If you are struggling this holiday, you are NOT alone! We will get through this. I’m going to get real personal here…
Today, I had mentioned that I was having a rough day and like always Bob Nation got me through with phone calls and text messages without me even saying why. THANK YOU! You have no idea how much that meant to me. I know it’s “my job” to get you through your work day, well you got me through mine.
10 years ago on Christmas Day, I lost my Nanny. The proper term is grandmother. Well, this year was turning into déjà vu. Recently my Mommaw, again proper term is grandmother, entered into Hospice. Ten years ago, our Christmas Spectacular was held on “the day before day before Christmas” aka December 23rd. During the Christmas Spectacular that year, I was standing at the microphone when I received a text stating that she had been put on a ventilator. Two days later on Christmas Day, she passed. Christmas has been different since then that Christmas. The first couple were difficult, but we always celebrate her and continue her Christmas traditions.
Now to present…Saturday was this year’s Christmas Spectacular and no, I didn’t receive a text but two days later I did receive a call from my mother that my Mommaw has passed.
This year had already been a struggle for me with getting Christmas presents bought (which still isn’t done), cleaning, working, making plans with people, heck even somedays just having time to sit and eat and now losing my Mommaw. How do I tell Banana Bob? Well, I haven’t yet. I have decided to wait until school is out. So, now when I have those moments of sadness and tears, I have to hide or contain them from her. I have always told her not to hold in her feelings and express herself and I’m doing to complete opposite. I know you are probably wondering why haven’t you told her, well Wednesday is the last day of school before Christmas vacation. I want her to enjoy it with her classmates/teachers and not be sad.
So, the show must go on…I will be here with my work and Bob Nation family until it is time to celebrate the life of my Mommaw with my family.
I’m a great listener and an ok talker, but not a professional. So if you are struggling this season, please talk to someone. There is no shame in asking for help. Here is a website that can give you some direction from hotlines, treatment centers and support groups.
YOU ARE WORTH IT! I BELIEVE IN YOU!
